The devastation in the Philippines brings me back there, remembering the little faces I got to know when I had the honor to travel with UNICEF 2008 to do work with the street kids. Especially Ella, who you can see in most of the pictures. The UNICEF workers told me not to get attached, it took me about a second.... She was 7, no parents, rotten teeth and she lived under the bridge with her friends, her new family. They stuck together like glue. They helped each other finding food and staying warm at night. Ella wanted me to bring her back with me to the US, she asked me to adopt her. She begged and when she realized I couldn't do it, (trust me I wanted, and probably would if it was possible) she turned her back. She walked away...I cried, I will never forget that moment.
I still have pictures of her framed in my house and I think of her often. I wonder if she is safe, if she found shelter, if she was even alive before this. It brakes my heart thinking about her and all the children who had nothing already, they must have been so scared when the most powerful typhoon in history hit one of the poorest countries in the world.
The work UNICEF do is fantastic, please donate.
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Sunday, November 10, 2013
Monday, September 16, 2013
moving with life changes
Life is constantly changing and we need to be changing with it, not resisting it. We are not the same person we were a year ago, a
month ago, or even a week ago. Life's cycle's doesn't stop even if we try to remain the same. Change is what
it’s all about. Every ending is the beginning of something
else. Every time we exit another door will open. Live, learn, and let
go. Don’t hold yourself down with the changes you can’t control.
Although some forces are out of
your control, you can control how you respond to things. Everyone’s life
has positive and negative aspects, whether you’re happy or sad. Let go of
what you can’t control, and invest your energy in the things you can.
Live simply, love generously, speak truthfully, breathe deeply, do your best,
and leave the rest to the powers above you.
love Camilla
Sunday, May 12, 2013
to you mom
Sitting
here on my very first mother’s day thinking about you mom and I feel this
overwhelming gratitude for you I have never felt before. My respect and appreciation
has grown much deeper for you ever since Jesper arrived into my life.
So
often we take our mother’s for granted and I am one to admit this I have done.
You
taught me freedom, which I think is the most beautiful gift you ever gave me.
You allowed me to explore and go after my dreams and so I did. I look back on the pain I felt in my past and I realize it all led me to this very moment. Often we
look back and blame our mother’s for our sorrows and so I did. We are both complex women but now I know this lead me to never settle. I wanted it all, I
wanted to explore life as fully and crazy I possibly could and you never
hindered me doing so. As I look at my little man and how we found each other I
cry tears of joy and feel such intense love I have never felt before. My heart
is in peace. I get it now, I
really do. Thank you mom for being you, I love you so very much. Happy Mother's day.
millan
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Year of Mindfulness
New
Year is the busiest time for me, people want to begin the year with change,
they feel more hopeful and they want to take care of themselves.
I
am thrilled this year because I have been asked more about meditation and about
how to practice mindfulness then I ever have before. It means people realize
that the louder the world is getting the more longing for silence.
When
I say the world is loud I talk about TV, Radio, computer, texting, emailing,
etc.. It’s all noise for the brain. You can’t even go to the bank without the
TV hanging on the wall feeding us with news media. When you walk into stores
including Whole foods LOUD music is playing. The mind get’s scattered, distracted,
we shop more, we get anxious.
The mind takes in 1000 bits of information
every second. It’s never quite, it’s going and going and we don’t even know how
it is affecting us until the body begins to ache with tension, we feel agitated,
emotions get’s the best of us and we react a lot quicker, often leaving us with
guilt.
Even when we are not physically doing
something the mind is raising thinking about past or future.
Stress
causes the Cortisol in our body to spike to a level that will eventually affect
our creative thinking, metabolism, our sleep, blod pressure and can cause all
kinds of physical issues.
We
get so far away from a balanced mind that we begin to create stories in our
head. Stories filled with doubt, fear, judgment etc… Stories that comes from;
“What if, should have, could have”.
These are all based on our mind being in future or past. We spend more time away from the present
moment and loose out on living now.
It’s easier to clean the house, the car and the closet then is to clean the mind from clutter.
Every thought follows with an emotion,
after the emotion a reaction
Tension will occur your neck, shoulders and lower back and if there is never a moment to relax you
are always on high alert it could have devastating effects on the body.
So
how do we stop the thinking? We don’t.
It’s not about controlling the mind or shut of our emotions. We can’t
stop the thoughts, they will always be there. But we can observe them and
listen to the quality of them. We can work on not letting them send us into a head
spin of negativity.
Before
we react, we pause, observe, take a breath or two and align mind and body with
the circumstance.
Once we hear our own thoughts and
actually listen to them we begin to see and feel the effect they have on us and
we can then make a choice to shift the pattern of them. Trying to understand them rather then
pushing them away, making peace with them, know where there is coming from let
them come and let them go. This is called mindfulness.
So
when we meditate it gives the mind a pause, and brake.
Just
like a computer needs space and even rewiring so does the mind.
I
like to sit and meditate first thing in the morning, begin the day with a clear
and calm mind.
You
will find after meditating a sense of clarity; you just gave the mind freedom
and space so you can invite new fresh thoughts, more happy and positive. Your
body will begin to release the tension.
When
we practice mindfulness we bring ourselves to the present moment. We lift the veil
that is clouding our mind, we navigate ourselves beyond the ego; the thinking
and into our essence.
Most
people have a hard time with the thought of doing nothing, but that is the
whole point….to BE…
We
watch the thought coming and going, we feel the breath rising and falling.
Try
to sit for 2 minutes in the morning, breathe and observe. ( yes, you do have 2 minutes )
At
the end of the meditation see a vision for what you would like to receive for
the day….
When
2 min becomes easy, do 5…then 10 etc…..
Blessings
and love
Camilla
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